Thursday, June 02, 2022

I'm taking my dog to his last vet appointment this afternoon.

Cancer and arthritis.  He doesn't like walking anymore.  It's time.

But dammit, it's not fair.

There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and Sisters, I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie—
Perfect passion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart for a dog to tear.

When the fourteen years which Nature permits
Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
And the vet’s unspoken prescription runs
To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
Then you will find—it’s your own affair—
But… you’ve given your heart to a dog to tear.

When the body that lived at your single will,
With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!).
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone—wherever it goes—for good,
You will discover how much you care,
And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

We’ve sorrow enough in the natural way,
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we’ve kept ’em, the more do we grieve:
For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short-time loan is as bad as a long—
So why in—Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?




He went with his head in my lap, me scratching that spot behind his ears and telling him what a good dog he was.  I kept his collar and his tags.

12 comments:

Glypto Dropem said...

Been through it many times myself and it always sucks. That said, I would never not have a dog or three in my life to love, and enjoy their love and companionship in return.

My heart breaks for ya, Dave.

ken said...

My family has had this happen twice in last six months. We feel for you. May peace come to you soon.

Mountain Rat said...

God bless you and your four legged friend. I have had to do this several times and it is never easy. We know the day we bring them home for the first time that someday they are going to break your heart.

Jim M said...

This duty is never easy. Give him the largest steak he can handle before the vet visit. Do not, under any circumstances, let him go to the Bridge alone. Hold him on the floor, lay next to him until his last breath. You'll see his tail wag as he crosses over and waits for you. If you can, take him home for burial.

Seabear said...

Ugh... Let him rest... enjoy the memories. Go well old fella.

justbob said...

Dogs are God's gift to man, they are forever faithful and love unconditionaly. Many dogs have passed through my home and each one has a special place in my heart.

CT Ginger said...

On my dogs’ (several) grave. By Lord Byron

Near this spot rest the remains of one who possessed
Beauty without Vanity,
Strength without Insolence,
Courage without Ferocity
and all Man's virtues with none of his vices

Hey Booms said...

So sorry and sad for you. As I get older, every one gets harder than the one before. I have 2 very old boys now. Brothers. The neighbor calls them the Clowns. It's gonna be tough.

Anonymous said...

Staring into that abyss sooner rather than later. I comfort myself in that they have little if any prescience of mortality. Least that's what I tell myself.
Boat Guy

p2 said...

Damn.

Paul Mitchell said...

I am sorry, my friend. We all understand and those good times are always worth it. The dumbest dog I've ever had was better than 95% of the people I have met.

Liam said...

My sympathies. The picture choked me a bit as he looks very similar to my beloved mutt. They really get into your heart don't they?