Thursday, June 22, 2023

Twenty years of ranting and raving

 I started blogging twenty years ago on this blog.  All because Tim asked if I'd like to join in the fun.

I had no clue what my life was going to become back then.  I hadn't re-enlisted yet.  Hadn't gotten married yet.  And here I am, retired from the Army, still putting up with my wife, and I'm old enough now to say I have no clue what my life will be in twenty years.  Or if I'll even be around in twenty years.  Who knows?

What I do know is that I'm rather tired of living in he Goolag, where posts of mine show up as censored by the Marxist pieces of shit at Google and Alphabet.  So, from now on you can find me at Liberty's Torch.

Life changes.  Some are welcome, some are not.  Alternatively, life sucks, wear a helmet.

Wednesday, June 21, 2023

Kinda like what Trump did

Without Trump's election, we wouldn't have nearly as much evidence of the corruption in D.C.  Oh, sure, we knew it was corrupt, but only the most pessimistic of us had any clue of how far down the rot had grown.

Keep pulling.

Monday, June 19, 2023

Started cleaning out Dad's office yesterday

 And I found it a little hard to breathe. It has been all assholes and elbows here since his death. There was a bunch of stuff that was planned prior to his passing, and that still had to be attended to. Such as the removal of several trees around the property that were either dying or at risk of falling and hitting the house. Since we use wood heat in the winter, that means they left the trees where they fell and it was my job to try to clean it up. Three days of moving wood and downed limbs, and I’ve barely put a scratch on the piles. It’ll be an all-summer event.

Helping Mom with the administrative stuff that happens when a retired service member dies. There’s a lot of people you have to contact and inform of the passing. Pay stuff. He was getting disability on top of the retirement, and since his death was related to his disability Mom gets a portion of it. Social Security, and dear Lord how I hate dealing with government offices.

So I’ve been busy. Hell, I might have had one day off since I retired, because people need to be taken care of and things need to be accomplished, and I’m the able-bodied (somewhat) man of the house, and so I just kept putting one foot in front of the other. Until yesterday.

Dad had a lot of mementos from his service. Lots of stuff that had importance to him personally, but other than that has real little value. I have the same from my service. I daresay that all of you, if you’re of my age or older, have the same from whatever occupation you had, a lifetime of memories from a career that are dear to you, but memories only matter to the person who has them. And so I have bundles of things, stuff, odds and ends that Dad cared about that are not only impractical but have very little use in the world, and I’m finding it rather hard to dispose of them. Anything that can be used or reused will be, because my father didn’t raise a wasteful man. But things such as the embroidered insignia from his first tour in Viet Nam, that not only means little to me but that I can’t even relate to, is still hanging on the wall. All of his sailing books that I’ll never use, because I already have hobbies that suck up my time and cash. The challenge coins… I have my own collection, and it’s considered uncouth to keep challenge coins that weren’t given to you directly. Dad got those coins for the things that HE did, just as I received mine for my own actions.

I can’t keep it all. But I’m struggling to part with it. I already have lot of mementos of my father. His service pistol, a 1911 he purchased when he first reported to his unit and was issued a pistol that rattled when you held it. Back when I first held his pistol, he told me that he had asked for something that wouldn’t blow up in his hand, and the armorer informed him that he could buy his own if he wanted. So he did. Books about forestry, which I think I’ll find more and more useful as the years go on. Pictures and memories framed on the wall. I know that I can’t keep everything. But I feel like it’s going to be several months before I can pare it down.

I told my Mom that when everything was done and put away, I was going to walk out into the woods and have myself a good long cry. And I think that when I let go of the last of Dad’s stuff, that is when it will happen.